Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label memories. Show all posts

Friday, May 1, 2026

Maypole Day

 May 1st. May Day. Maypole Day. Rebirth. New beginnings. Spring.

I have a vivid memory of (when I was very young) celebrating Maypole Day at a local high school where one of my aunts served on the May Day Queen Court. Given the timeframe, I would have been under the age of five. That's a pretty powerful memory. 

As little girls do sometimes, I thought my aunt looked like a fairy princess. As required then, she wore a long, formal ball gown with evening gloves. My memory wants me to recall that the dress was pale yellow for some reason, but the history and customs of the Maypole Court and Dance indicate it was likely white. Either way, I thought her to be so beautiful. Even though she was not crowned May Day Queen (or May Queen) that day, watching the festivities surrounding the custom and the coordinated dancing around the Maypole held a strong enough fascination for me. I recall it decades later every May 1st. And for a few years in elementary school, I took part in Maypole Dancing, too, until the practice was nothing more than a memory. 

It is likely that my aunt is somewhere in one of the two photographs here. Same timeframe, same location. And somewhere in the crowd, I sat with my grandmother watching the pageantry of it all with wonder. 



 




Also, regarding my last post on Cedar Waxwings, I found a photograph of one of the crabapple trees in my front yard in full bloom. There were three of these trees in my yard at the time; the smallest one was in the back that I referenced in that blog post. As always, thanks for reading what I post here. 






Thursday, July 24, 2025

ABBA and the Bee Gees

 I came of age with ABBA. When I was in high school, their songs were getting played on the radio and I became aware of them even though they had been around a little longer. When I was in college, some of my girlfriends and I drove to Florida for spring break and ABBA's music was everywhere. It is what I think of first when I recall that trip. 

Their music brings such wonderful memories for me; one can say nostalgia is in overdrive when I hear one of their songs and I probably know the words to most, if not all, of them. Last year, I saw 'ABBA Voyage' at the Queen Elizabeth Olympic Park in London, and a couple of years ago those same girlfriends from college and I got together for an ABBA tribute band concert. Add the stage productions and movies of 'Mamma Mia', and well, I continue to attend anything ABBA related. I probably always will. Their music gets me dancing and singing. Most importantly, it's music that makes me happy. 

The Bee Gees had hits before I discovered them, too. The movie, 'Saturday Night Fever', revealed their music to me and I've loved them ever since. Feeling nostalgic today.

Sharing a couple. 






Wednesday, March 12, 2025

Cinderella ~ 1965

 


I somehow missed this milestone. Missed it because it was something so relevant to me as a child. Last month marked the 60th anniversary television release of the 1965 Rodgers and Hammerstein musical production of Cinderella. 

It starred Lesley Ann Warren, Stuart Damon, Ginger Rogers, Celeste Holm, Walter Pidgeon, and so many other talented individuals. Warren was only eighteen when she was cast in the title role of Cinderella; and Damon, Prince Charming, might be better known and remembered for his portrayal of Dr. Alan Quartermaine on ABC's General Hospital. That alone is worthy of a future blog post here. 

One Saturday evening at her grandmother's house, the little girl sat on the floor, eyes glued to a screen that showed people singing and dancing. Suddenly a beautiful princess appeared destined to find the prince of her dreams. The child hugged her blanket closely, in her very own little corner. 

I was that little girl. 


In my Own Little Corner

Songwriters Rodgers and Hammerstein

I'm as mild and as meek as a mouseWhen I hear a command, I obeyBut I know of a spot in my houseWhere no one can stand in my way
In my own little corner, in my own little chairI can be whatever I want to beOn the wings of my fancy, I can fly anywhereAnd the world will open its arms to me
I'm a young Norwegian, princess or a milkmaidI'm the greatest prima donna in MilanI'm an heiress who has always had her silk madeBy her own flock of silkworms in Japan
I'm a girl men go mad for, love's a game I can playWith a cool and confident kind of airJust as long as I stay in my own little cornerAll alone in my own little chair
I can be whatever I want to beI'm a slave from Calcutta, I'm a queen in PeruI'm a mermaid dancing upon the sea
I'm a huntress on an African safariIt's a dangerous type of sport, yet it's funIn the night I sally forth to seek my quarryAnd I find I forgot to bring my gun
I am lost in the jungle, all alone and unarmedWhen I meet a lioness in her lairThen I'm glad to be back in my own little cornerAll alone in my own little chair


Monday, July 24, 2023

Release

 


I attended the funeral of a dear old friend this past week. It’s always difficult to say goodbye, even though physical distance had made regular visits fewer than they had been in the past. Illness, too. The memories of nearly forty years of friendship being all that’s left, and knowing the years ahead are fewer than the years behind make life these days sobering. Too many good ones are leaving. It’s a fate for all of us. A sense of melancholy is hitting me pretty hard right now; I’m also very tired.


Into the Woods

(By Veronica Randolph Batterson; ©Veronica Randolph Batterson)


There’s an empty bridge

Beckoning

Offering what you will make of it.

Into the woods

To escape the realities

Of the somebodies using the nobodies.

To clear your mind

Of the unfairness 

That “lesser” women and men

Being used by the Big Man and Big Woman is the norm

That life doesn’t always give fair shakes,

Regardless of how hard you work and sacrifice.


There’s an empty bridge

Beckoning

Offering what you will make of it.

Into the woods

To take deep breaths

While getting angry,

And screaming with tears, cursing the skies above.

Plotting revenge 

Or reconciling acceptance,

Acknowledging that Grace over spite

Is being an adult,

As is offering kindness to people who don’t deserve it.




Friday, July 1, 2022

More to the Playlist

 The following songs remind me of summers past. One hit the charts early in my college years, while another was released as I neared the end of my university years. They bring back memories of people, the University Center, an old beat up hand-me-down car, and a new stick-shift (manual transmission) I bought myself. I learned to drive it after I bought it! 

The other songs came much later, and I've no idea the time of year they were released, but they remind me of good times during the summer. The 4th of July holiday, the beach (particularly Hilton Head or Kiawah Island, S.C.), fresh produce stands on the side of the road...watermelon, peaches, corn on the cob, tomatoes. 

Adding to a very long playlist of great songs...

Youtube shares: 

The Motels - Suddenly Last Summer

Kim Carnes - Bette Davis Eyes

Sade - By Your Side

Dido- Thank You

Dido - White Flag 








Friday, June 10, 2022

Madeline

"In an old house in Paris that was covered with vines lived twelve little girls in two straight lines...The smallest one was Madeline..."

 

It seems I'm forever going through boxes that have been packed away. The latest, and hopefully last, has been sorting the original American Girl dolls (and all of the paraphernalia that goes with them) which belonged to my daughters when they were children. It's time for those things to be passed on to the adult kids to handle and do with as they choose. 

As it always seems to be, there is a hitch of nostalgia along the way. Not only with those dolls, but I found some books that meant something to me early in my life. I later bought the series for my daughters. 

I adored the Madeline books (by Ludwig Bemelmans) when I was a child, and the greatest memory of watching television back then was this little story which aired periodically. When? I can't recall. Perhaps it was on Saturday mornings when network cartoons aired until about noon; more than likely it was simply a special now and then that glued me to the television. I remember sitting mesmerized, reciting the words to memory. 

Of course, Youtube seems to be the source of opportunity whenever a memory or idea comes to mind; simply search and you're likely to find a long lost song, commercial or television show. Such is the case with the beautiful Madeline airing "back in the dark ages" 😊. With a little smile, I'm sitting at my computer this time, yet still mesmerized and reciting the words from long ago. 

If you have a few minutes, take the time to watch this little Youtube share. Thank you, as always. 






Friday, January 21, 2022

The Looking Glass

 Ten years have passed since I started this blog and as I've written many times here, I never thought it would last very long. Setting goals with respect to it, keeping it eclectic in content with no theme made it more interesting for me (and easier) to continue. However, the biggest encouragement through it all has been the readers. Thank you to those who continue checking in, reading, and having interest in what I write and have to say. That's the greatest motivation of all. 

Regarding 'The Looking Glass'...there's a cartoon that depicts how differently men and women perceive their reflections when looking into a mirror. While it's a generalization and in no way accurately depicts everyone, it is somewhat spot-on.  A woman looking into a mirror focuses on the flaws she sees in herself; the flaws become so emphasized that the image staring back is a negative, ugly caricature.  A man, on the other hand, will gaze at himself, seeing a caricature of Adonis-like perfection. Again, just a generalization, but it does explain how too many women have a negative body image complex, and we unfairly compare ourselves to what we aren't and never will be. 

As women age, the issue stays with us but the comparison shifts to the younger version...what we looked like in our twenties and thirties. We weren't content with our appearances then, yet it's what we long to have on the older model. Rather than being content and happy with what we are, there's comparison that's never achievable.  I know I'll never look like the beautiful Christie Brinkley, but that's okay because I never did in the first place.  However, I should be okay with how I've aged, but that "never quite good enough" is on repeat in my head. We're too tough on ourselves, ladies. 


The selfies I share in this blog are an example: I took them looking into a mirror in front of my Christmas tree. While I think they're better than normal of myself, the lighting is actually terrible. The lights on my tree are not yellow, they're white/clear. Go figure. 

Finally, sharing 'The Looking Glass' below, with more emphasis on memories. So many thanks, yet again, for those who have inspired me the last ten years. The plan is to keep it going, and I hope you continue to read it. Much love and appreciation. 


The Looking Glass

 

By Veronica Randolph Batterson 

 

 

She was just a girl.  One that stared back at her sixty-year-old image reflected in the looking glass; gone were the age spots and wrinkles, replaced with the wide smile, strong jaw and smooth skin of her early twenties.  She wore the pink Chuck Taylor high-tops she loved, and carried a novel, sketch pad, and camera in her arms. Staples of her life. Was she listening to Train in Vain by The Clash, or Cyndi Lauper’s Girls Just Want to Have Fun? Had she been to class or was she going to class? The image turned her back, glancing over her shoulder at the future, then dissolved.

She was just a girl.

An even younger version appeared, gazing into the glass with wonder and curiosity about life; the future stared back, remembering.  She was awkward and skinny, self-conscious about both; she wrote poems about it and daydreamed.  Head in the clouds, always in the clouds.

  She was just a girl.

Then a jumble of images…Barbie dolls and Dancerina, Tippee Toes and The Muppets, Etch-A-Sketch and Easy Bake Oven, Mood Rings and Class Rings, Tip-It and Operation, Berets and Mortarboards, Close ‘N Play and Transistor Radios, Chrissy and Velvet, Pet Rocks and Toss Across, Baby Beans and Baby Alive, Thumbelina and Baby Tenderlove.

Mousetrap and Viewmaster, Spirograph and Lite-Brite, Barrel of Monkeys and Paper Dolls, Duncan Yo-Yos and Clackers, Peace Signs and Nike Classic Cortez, Love Beads and Puka Shells, Chokers and Neck Scarves, Earth Shoes and Bell Bottoms, Crochet and Macramé, The Hustle and Tetherball, Noxzema and Oil of Olay, Love’s Baby Soft and Avon’s Sweet Honesty, Scrunchies and Fingerless Gloves, Wayfarers and Shoulder Pads.

The looking glass cleared, along with the memories. Six decades stared at her, the mirror no longer reflecting the past.  She was just a girl, but a modified version of her younger self. That girl of ten, and 16, 21 and 30…the same girl at 40, 50 and even 60.  Experienced, but still a little naïve, skeptical and yet hopeful, still full of questions but possessing more answers to life. Always thinking and wondering. Creating.

She was still just a girl. 

Thursday, December 17, 2020

The House at the End of the Road


I started the following short story, The House at the End of the Road, two years ago with the intent of posting it in December of 2018.  It was to be a nice holiday story, but things started evolving as I wrote and I never finished it for some reason. It was forgotten last year as life changes were occurring over the holidays. It's complete now, and isn't in any way a nice or conventional holiday story.  The story took me in a certain direction, and I followed what it was saying to me.  That's how it usually goes.

Happy holidays and merry Christmas to all. Toast the end of 2020 with relief and happiness. Stay safe, wear your mask, and sacrifice just a little longer. As always, thank you for reading this short story, and copyright applies.  ©️Veronica Randolph Batterson 2018


The House at the End of the Road

By Veronica Randolph Batterson

The sign above the counter flickered and buzzed, its message of the season replaying while each letter glowed fluorescent green, one trailing after the other. The bulb highlighting the “E” was burned out, with a darkened space preceding the final “L”.  It didn’t matter though, as the meaning was clear without the second vowel.  She’d like to offer them credit for the creativity of letting it be, but it was more than likely due to someone being too lazy to fix it.  

N - O – Space – L – Flicker - Buzz - Repeat.  NO-L. 

If she watched long enough, it would be easy to get hypnotized so she forced herself to look away.  And waited.  Throughout the diner, she took in the skimpy decorations.  Silver garland roped around the bottom of a half dozen bar stools, and red bows anchored the base of a tabletop Christmas tree.  It held no ornaments but wore the remains of what was left of the garland.  A blow-mold Santa stood sentinel by the door while Brenda Lee’s voice proved the old jukebox in the corner still worked.  It was exactly the same as it had been her last Christmas here, just a little shabbier, a tad bit worn out and showing its age.  Sort of like herself.  It was two weeks into the new year, and she wondered if the decorations and music were now part of the décor and ambiance, what little there was of either one.  She was the only customer in the place.

Glancing out the window, she watched as the anticipated snow arrived.  Big heavy flakes coated the frozen layer of week-old snow that carpeted the ground, the steady fall signaling it was settling in and going nowhere quickly.  Two snow plows barreled down the main road, lights flashing and clearing a path, the tires spewing muddy slush in their wake.  An unfortunate car followed too closely; as a result, its windshield wipers swished on high with headlights barely visible from the wet muck it received.  The driver passed the entrance to the parking lot and crept out of her sight.  

“Watcha havin’?” the voice addressed her.

She looked at the woman standing before her, hand on right hip holding an order pad.  The other clicked the top of an ink pen impatiently.  Her hairstyle, a product of the 1980s, was teased as wide as it was high, and it held a pink tinge to match her uniform.  The nametag pinned at her shoulder read, “Barbara”.  

“Some coffee to start,” she replied to the woman.

“Got some brewin’ in the back. Hope you like the regular stuff.  We don’t carry that decaf crap,” the woman said, scribbling on her pad. 

“Regular is fine.  Cream, too, please,” she said.

“Milk?” the voice challenged; the woman’s eyes conveyed the same.

“Perfect,” she said.

“You obviously ain’t ever had our coffee.  Perfect won’t be the word that comes to mind when it hits your tongue,” the woman replied.  “You don’t remember me, do you?”

“I’m afraid I’m not very good with names,” she began, wishing to admit the woman was right but not wanting to offend her.

“That’s okay.  We didn’t exactly run with the same crowd,” came the response.  The woman suddenly sat down across from her.

Barbara slid the order pad and pen across the table then tented her fingers, revealing long nails that glimmered a shade of pink polish to match the rest of her.  Pepto Bismol came to mind.

“I remember that house best,” Barbara started, “the one you lived in on West Main.  The house at the end of the road.  We all wondered what it looked like inside.”

“Better than it probably does now,” she replied.  

“You got that right,” Barbara laughed.  A deep-throated cackle, that divulged too many years of nicotine indulgence.  “Haven’t seen it yet, huh?”

“Just got into town,” she answered.

The house was one reason she had returned.  It was up to her to take it on, or let it continue to rot and waste away as her aunt had allowed until the day she died.  Now it was hers again due to inheritance, and as being the only one left in the family to receive it.  It wasn’t something she had wanted, but she felt an obligation to it.  To her parents who had loved it until the day they passed, then the house went to her mother’s sister.  She had then left town freshman year of college and never returned.  Until now.

“It was always one of those fancy dazzlers,” Barbara said, interrupting her thoughts.  “Not proud of it, but we egged it once on Halloween.  Tried rolling it with toilet paper, too, but lights came on and a dog started barking.  We high-tailed it out of there then.”

“It saw its share of toilet paper, at least, when I was a kid,” she replied.  The big oak tree in front seemed to be a challenge to any teenager willing to try. The stronger the arm at just the right release could send a roll soaring over the branches.  If the paper caught on a limb at the right place, the remainder of the roll cascaded down to the ground, draping the tree in bathroom tissue ornamentation. She admitted it was a work of art to behold in the mornings, but it always fell on her to clean up the mess.  Even the tallest of ladders couldn’t reach the top branches where the white strips remained until rain and snow took care of it.  Her father, growing tired of seeing it, finally installed some motion detector lights which ended the onslaught.

“Well, that old tree was like a bull’s eye,” Barbara said, as if reading her mind, “every kid had to try it at least once. Bragging rights for the next week at school if they made the top of it.”  She cackled again at the memory.

“Who was ‘we’ that egged it?  You and who else?” she suddenly asked Barbara, thinking names might help her place the woman sitting across from her.

“Oh, so and so, you know?  Names escape me sometimes, but if I recall one of them might’ve been sweet on you,” Barbara replied vaguely, patting the back of her Aqua Net-stiffened hair.  

“Sweet on me and egged my house?” she laughed, wishing Barbara would check on that pot of coffee.

“What can I say? Boys. They’ll stick a frog down your back and declare true love,” was the answer, followed by another cackle, and adding, “Guessing you don’t remember him either.”

“Well, it was a long time ago, and as you said, names escape me. Faces do, too, apparently,” she said.  

“Funny how we miss things sometimes when we’re too busy not looking,” Barbara stated.  This time, no laugh but the gaze was direct as if there was meaning behind the words.

“I suppose so,” she replied, not knowing how else to respond.

“I know so,” the woman shot back.

The jukebox clicked again, restarting with the same Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree that had been playing when she got there. It must’ve been on its fourth or fifth turn, and she’d heard nothing else.  “Got it on repeat?” she asked, changing the subject.  She couldn’t help feeling a little unnerved and confused by the whole atmosphere, and the fact the server seemed more interested in talking than getting her that cup of coffee.  

“Nothin’ else on that old piece of junk that’ll play. Gotten a little used to it so that I don’t notice much nowadays,” Barbara replied.  “We don’t get many customers anymore, anyway,” she added.

“Business that slow?” she asked.  Making idle chit chat was getting more difficult without that jolt of caffeine she craved.

“Slower than a snail crossin’ a finish line,” again Barbara cackled.  “Say, how is it outside this place? In the world, I mean. I ain’t traveled much, certainly not like you. Where you livin’?”

“Seattle.  We get a lot of rain.  Basically, people are the same everywhere, just different environments.  Some good places, some not so good,” she answered.

“That’s too bad,” Barbara said, shaking her head.  “Guess I thought different places made different folks.”

“How did you know I traveled?” she asked suddenly.  She’d not kept any connections other than with her aunt, who was a recluse rarely leaving that old house she was left to deal with.

“Word gets around,” the woman offered, looking directly at her.

“Well, you couldn’t have gotten any words from my aunt because she talked to no one,” she suggested.

“Ain’t that the truth,” Barbara said, minus the cackle but with a shake of her head that sent that helmet head of hair nowhere.

“You’ve never had the urge to travel?” she asked.

“Oh, I had the urge alright, just ran out of time. Things happen,” the woman answered with a shrug.

Something about the way Barbara said those words made her take a good look at the woman’s face.  Really look.  She appeared no older than a teenager, or early twenties at best.  There wasn’t a line on her face.  It was said you could really tell a person’s age by the skin on the neck and hands.  Barbara’s were smooth and youthful, unlined and taut; they certainly didn’t reflect her own sagging neck, and the bent, swollen and arthritic hands that plagued her.  If Barbara knew her when they were younger, the years had been kind.  Too kind to be believable, and she was starting to doubt the woman’s claims.  Perhaps it was time to go. 

  “Any way I could get that coffee to go?” she asked, pointedly glancing at her wristwatch. “I should probably get on the road, weather and all.” 

“Oh, it’ll be ready soon, I guess.  Ain’t never been in any hurry,” she dismissed.  “Will you tell me something?”

“I’ll try,” she replied shortly, fighting the urge to just get up and leave while telling the woman to keep the blasted coffee.

“What was it like inside at Christmas?  Your house at the end of the road? I used to stand outside in the snow, watching the lights twinkle from across the street. It looked so warm inside, so welcoming. I’d see you sitting by the fireplace, you know the one by the front window? Your mama would bring you cookies on a plate, not out of a bag like I was used to getting.  A plate! There’d be a nice-looking fire blazing, and you’d be playing with that old, hound pup you had.  What was his name? Oh yeah, Rufus. Then Rufus would run around the biggest Christmas tree I’d ever seen in my life, all decked out in tinsel and lights. It was the prettiest thing in the world. I thought if I’d ever die and go to heaven, it would be just like that.  Heaven,” Barbara sighed, “I just loved that old house. Had dreams about it.”

“How do you know all of that? Is this some sort of joke?” she began, “You look young enough to be my daughter, so there’s no way you could’ve known me back then.  Do I know your parents?  Did they tell you about my dog? His name? And that scene at Christmas hasn’t been played out in decades; not since I lived there and not since the place passed to my aunt.  And I’m sorry, but I just can’t remember who you are.”  There.  She said it because her anger was taking over, hindered by worry about that damned house, lack of sleep and the need for caffeine.  It was clear she was being played a fool, why was anyone’s guess, but she’d had enough.

There was something about Barbara that nagged at her, and it could’ve been due to her inability to remember this woman from her past, but it seemed greater. Troubling, even.  Was it dislike?  Something to prove?  Resentment?  It was time to leave.

“Better check on that coffee,” Barbara mumbled, her eyes glazing over a bit as if she’d just checked out of the room, and from everything around her.  

“Never mind, it’s okay. I should get going,” she said, buttoning her coat.  The woman was still seated as she left the diner. 

The snow was accumulating quickly; weather forecasters had predicted over a foot of fresh powder by morning, she remembered.  Just as she reached her SUV, she realized her favorite scarf was still inside on the table.  Debating whether to leave it or not was quick; it held special significance because it was old and had belonged to her mother.  As she turned around to make her way back to the diner, she saw all lights in the place were off and wondered how Barbara had closed so quickly.  There were no other cars in the parking lot, but Barbara could’ve easily parked behind the building, out of sight.  The front door was already locked, so she knocked, hoping the woman would hear her, but not blaming her if she was ignored.  The shock of cold air had cooled her temper; she knew she’d been rude.  

As her pleas went unanswered, a pickup truck slowly pulled into the parking lot, carefully clearing a path through the snow with its headlights spotlighting her form at the door.  It crept around forming a semi-circle until the driver’s side was directly in front of her.  Once the window was lowered, a middle-aged man sitting behind the steering wheel was revealed to her.  He leaned out.

“Can I help you with something?” he asked.

“I just remembered I forgot my scarf inside.  Only want to retrieve it and be on my way,” she replied.

“When exactly did you forget it?” asked the man, with a perplexed look on his face.

“Well, now, of course. I was just in there,” she responded.  What a ridiculous question, she thought.

“If you were just in there, then you were trespassing,” shot the man. 

“What? It was open, I went inside for a cup of coffee, which I never got, by the way,” she exclaimed.  

“Look, I own the place.  Can you read?” he snapped, nodding his head toward a sign in the window by the door.

Her eyes settled on words that she swore hadn’t been there prior to the man’s arrival. “COMMERCIAL PROPERTY AUCTION” jumped from the metal behind the glass, with the dates and information below.  How could she have missed it?

“But, I don’t understand,” she stammered, “I promise you I just left this place, a woman named Barbara took my order.”  The words sounded weak even to her.

“I don’t know who you are, or what kind of cruel game you’re playing, but you need to leave.  Get the hell off my property before I call the cops,” he fumed.

“Go around back and see if there’s a car there. This woman was in there, talking to me, taking my order.  Christmas decorations and Brenda Lee on the jukebox,” she threw back.

The man eyed her, as if weighing what to do next.  “Barbara was my sister,” he began, a mixture of pain and anger reflected in his eyes.  “She passed decades ago right here in this parking lot.  Twenty years old and a diagnosis of lung cancer because she’d been a chain smoker since she was thirteen.  Couldn’t take the pain, and decided to end it herself,” he said.

“Somebody impersonating,” she mumbled, stunned at his words. 

“I don’t know what kind of crazy you are, but you couldn’t have been inside just now.  Couldn’t have just talked to Barbara, no Christmas decorations to see ‘cause none are up. I closed the place two months ago.  As for that old jukebox, it jammed up on that Brenda Lee song the night Barbara died.  Never fixed it.  It did nothing more from that point on but take up space.  Now, I stopped tonight on my way home because I saw you here, and wondered what was up.  I’d really like to get on home because I’m tired, hungry, and pretty irritable right now, but I’m not leaving before you do,” he nodded toward her SUV.

Slowly she began to cross the parking lot, wondering if she’d lost her mind.  Was it the stress of having to come back after all this time and face the dilapidated condition of her childhood home, or had she actually encountered someone inside?  What had made her stop at the place to begin with?  She remembered lights were on and the door was open, indicating it was open for business.  Was it some elaborate joke on her? Before reaching her vehicle, the man’s words stopped her.

“Wait a minute.  I remember you,” he accused.  “Heard you were coming into town to finally take care of that neighborhood blight.  About time.”

“Not a fancy dazzler anymore, then,” she said quietly.

He looked at her sharply.  “That’s what Barbara always called it.  And, no.”

“I’m sorry for taking up your time.  I’ll just get on back to the hotel,” she said, opening her car door.  Shivering, she realized she was coated with snow, the short ends of her hair wet and plastered to her cheeks.  The hat she wore did little in keeping her head warm in such weather.  

“You know, for whatever reason I remember Barbara worshipped you and your ilk.  She loved Christmas and daydreamed about that house you lived in.  Loved how it looked all decorated for the holidays.  She always talked about that house at the end of the road.  You didn’t even know who she was, but you sure enjoyed what our mama did for you.  Cleaned your toilets and scrubbed your floors, that’s what.  Bet you didn’t know that either,” he said, not noticing she was soaked, or not caring.

“I didn’t,” she admitted, ashamed.

“Mama would never take Barbara inside, thinking she’d get fired if caught.  Mama also tried to get her to understand that you still created the same mess that needed cleaning, regardless of where you lived.  Barbara never listened to that either.  She wouldn’t even listen the last night you were in town before heading off to college…the night you and your friends sat around in the diner, running up a huge check for hours then stiffed her.  All of you left, and no one paid.  No tip either.  Barbara’s boyfriend was a cook that night; he even had a crush on you.  None of it fazed her. Couldn’t understand it since I saw you and your lot for what you were.  Just a bunch of rich, entitled snobs.”

“I thought the bill that night,” she began but couldn’t finish.  She was certain someone was supposed to pick up the tab.  But it was so long ago.  Had she been so selfish and thoughtless?  Suddenly she recalled the words the woman had said, “one of them might’ve been sweet on you.”  Was that Barbara’s boyfriend that this man mentioned?

“You remember how to drive in this mess?” the man asked suddenly, deciding the conversation was over.

She nodded, brushing off the snow and sliding into her SUV, starting the engine.

“If you’re hungry, there are a couple of 24-hour restaurants about a half mile up. Nothing closes them down, menu might be limited though.  Weather should be clear by morning,” he called as she nodded once more and slammed the door.  She sat for a minute with the heater on high, aware he was waiting for her to leave, but she needed to thaw a little and clear her head. 

Deciding to simply go back to the hotel, she glanced down as she shifted into drive and noticed it.  There on the passenger seat lay her scarf.  It was folded neatly as if it hadn’t been worn at all, not carelessly tossed aside as she usually did after removing it from around her neck.  

Slowly she pulled out of the parking lot, the man behind her ensuring her departure.  She watched as he went in the opposite direction.  Driving past the hotel, she needed to first visit the reason she’d returned.  She was cold and shivering, the heater couldn’t work fast enough.  It wasn’t only due to the weather though. Something strange had happened, something odd and unexplainable that left her without warmth; the experience, or her past ways, or a little of both added to the unending chill.  

 Turning onto West Main, she inched her way through unplowed snow and between cars haphazardly parked along both sides of the street.  A few discarded Christmas trees were scattered along the curbs fronting driveways, ready for collection.  Uncertain as to what she needed or expected, she finally reached her destination.  The place of her youth.  

The house at the end of the road stood, and in its darkness a light somewhere within it switched on, revealing a big Christmas tree covered in tinsel.  There she could see her young self through the front window, sitting by a blazing fire in the fireplace, taking a cookie from a plate her mother offered to her.  Rufus sat at her feet. 

 

The End.

 

 ©️Veronica Randolph Batterson 2018


Thursday, July 12, 2018

Views from the Passenger's Seat

Grizzly mama & three cubs - Alaska 
Early in my marriage, road trips were predominantly the way my husband and I traveled.  Since we made a few moves across country, much of the car journeys involved packing up the kids and seeing family in other states, getting to know the areas in which we settled, and taking advantage of the freedom traveling by car (and mini-van, and SUV) brought us. Fortunately, my husband enjoyed being behind the wheel, and I was content to let him take it.  I prefer looking at the surroundings and absorbing as much as possible (a lot of what I write comes from being able to do this, especially if I’m listening to music). 
As with most things, there are always hiccups that find and surprise you, sort of like potholes as soon as you hit one.  Whether it’s forgetting to pack those extra shoes, remembering something you didn’t do, or taking the wrong exit (we relied on road maps until recently), it jars you.  But it happens to be those little occurrences, memorable or forgettable (depending on the point of view) that add to the trips. While I’m a “it’s time to fill-up even though I still have half a tank” kind of gal, my husband enjoys living life on the edge and sliding in at the gas pumps on that last gasp of fumes, then looking at me with defiant eyes, saying “made it”.   
One particular event many years ago caused neither one of us to speak to each other for quite a while, and that’s hard to do when you’re confined in a moving vehicle for hours on end.  About sixty miles after making a pit stop, I glanced down at my hands and my engagement ring was missing.  Saying I panicked was an understatement, and I remembered taking it off in the ladies’ washroom when we last stopped.  So back we went, retracing those sixty miles.  Once there, I jumped from the car and reached into my pocket for no particular reason.  Facial expressions give much away, and mine were obviously loaded.  “In your pocket?” he asked.  “Yep,” I mumbled, slinking back in.  I don’t remove the rings anymore.  Stone cold silence and a wasted 120 miles will do it.
That incident was brought to mind recently with something similar though.  I thought I’d lost the lens cap to a new (and expensive) camera lens until I remembered “the ring”; panic, worry about retracing steps (in the dark this time around), then the light bulb moment.  Pocket!  The back one this time.  I didn’t even have to tell him, as we continued traveling down the highway.  I smiled a little with relief. 
My camera has caused a few memorable travel incidents.  I wouldn’t have believed one had I not seen the evidence; it will forever be affectionately referred to as “the bird incident”.   On one excursion, I wanted to get a few quick shots of something, so my husband pulled into a parking lot and waited for me.  There is much debate as to who was at fault with this one: me for leaving the car door open, him for looking down at his cell phone.  I suppose that the phone wouldn’t have prevented what came at him, but how was I supposed to know that a seagull wanted to take a ride in the car? I was gone mere minutes, but when I returned I was greeted by my husband, wild eyed, wiping his brow with one hand, while wiping the dashboard with the other.  Fortunately, he had more than one handkerchief; all of the spare napkins in the car were used as well. 
His account of the incident included many words, some of which were: minding his own business, looking at cell phone, foot on brake, swooped in, attacked, never put it in park, accidentally stepped on accelerator, then slammed on brake, choked by seatbelt, Alfred Hitchcock movie, you left the door open, why did you leave the door open, crazed bird, bird blank everywhere, thought I was going to die.  I’m pretty sure profanities were intermixed and woven through these fragments of expressions, too.  Sometimes the bird gods give us laughter, I just regret my camera was turned elsewhere at the time.
We have spent hours on the road trying to find (and succeeding) an obscure cemetery that’s part of a ghost town in the middle of Illinois cornfields so I could write about it; finding and observing wild horses in New Mexico for research (again for my books and photography); breathing wild fire smoke and seeing the devastation it caused; enduring an outlandish stop in Connecticut that my daughter can fondly recount verbatim; fourth of July in Boston (the best city to celebrate the holiday in my opinion); driving over so many mountain passes in this beautiful country (accompanied by colorful commentary from my mouth during these spine-tingling journeys); seeing the Grand Canyon for the first time made me cry (the sheer beauty of it is overwhelming); the same happens whenever I visit the Lincoln Memorial in Washington (even though I’ve seen it numerous times); city lights and urban areas; rural towns and natural settings; desolate terrain and lush beauty; extreme poverty and enormous wealth.  
Sea otter - Glacier Bay National Park - Alaska
Our travels have allowed us to see many things, and it obviously hasn’t always been by the road; planes, trains and automobiles have figured equally.  In May, the views for both of us came via a cruise ship to Alaska that offered some of the most stunning vistas imaginable.  It also provided special glimpses of wildlife in their natural habitat: a grizzly bear and her three cubs wandering along the shore, herds of mountain goats grazing on the slopes, a pod of orcas, humpback whales, sea lions, dolphins, dozens of sea otters (many carrying their babies), bald eagles everywhere and ravens (hearing one screech is rather startling).  
Orcas - Alaska (from the distance I initially thought dolphins)
Visiting Alaska meant one more thing to us: it was an accomplishment.  We have now traveled to all fifty states in this country.  Yes, all of those little side trips, jumping in the car and driving trips, hitting the road and going trips have added up.  I have been asked more than once:  which state is my favorite?  My answer would be: many.  I think it’s easier to answer which states I like the least but I won’t offer that here.  Some have wondered where we’d like to go next.  I’d say seeing things we’ve missed, visiting more national parks, and doing much more international travel.  Of course, revisiting the places we love.
Wherever we head, I’ll have my camera, take my notes for research, daydream, observe, and brace myself for those surprises that make memories.  

 
Rainbows changed and reappeared within minutes - Alaska





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